Name:Benson Chew
Age:Forever 21

May 2012

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So lost in should i continue hanging on or i just let it go!! It's been so long, this feeling has simply become part of me. The thought had been the first thing that comes to my mind in morning and the last thing that i think of before i sleep. I just can't help it but even though i know it's pretty much impossible between us for now. All i can do is hope for the best in future and hope we do have a future even though i know our life and many other aspect of life is far too different

Woke up at noon as usual, and went lunch with my cousin, aunts and my mum =p and spent the rest of the afternoon at home doing nothing much. And had dinner at plaza singapura

Went to watch MIB 3 at GV plaza with the family. The show was pretty awesome, especially the dialogue in the show. It is funny, that's like the main focus of the show, the way they talk. Overall it is a nice show. Went for a cuppa drink at toastbox after the movie. Home sweet home after that =p Had a pretty good day overall.

Had a stressful day with the amount of work in school. Haven't been so stress for a really long time!! School really never fail to gives me extreme fatigue and exhaustion!! But the result of the work really give a sense of satisfaction when it's all completely done and as least i know i learnt something.

Spent the rest of the evening after school laying on the sofa watching tv with my laptop next to me. And had maggie for dinner cuz was too tired to go out for dinner. Went supper with nigel as usual, Slack, talk, eat and laugh.

As usual at mcdonalds at supper hours, the same song is playing and the same feelings just surface. Been thinking alot about it and has finally came to a conclusion. Probably it's just not time yet or maybe it was never my time. Hope for all the best

Manage to wake up earlier this morning, been waking up at noon everyday recently. Woke up at 9+ to go have breakfast with my dad, aunts and cousins. Lunch was pretty normal by having porridge at my aunt's house and spend the rest of the afternoon infront of the tv with my laptop next to me =p dinner was a belated celebration of mother's day at Pin Si restaurant( yishun safra). The food was awesome, had so much till i'm still feeling full right now.

Yet another day passed, wanted to wake up earlier today!! But still ended up waking up at 1pm!! Not a good thing, if this goes on, i will get lazier and lazier!! Shall strive to wake up earlier tomorrow =)

Had lunch with my mum, aunts and cousin. Had koi after lunch, craving satisfied. Spent the rest of the day doing nothing. As usual, watching show while updating my blog. Been having the urge to update my blog daily!! No idea whether it's a good thing or not!! Maybe it's because life is getting monotone!! But anyways, hipe to make changes in life soon =p Looking forward to the belated mother day dinner tomorrow =p

Always thought i no longer hold on to it, but i guess i was wrong!! Time really flies!! Didn't know feelings could last so long. Thought it has faded but went one big round and i am still here where i started!! But i know it ain't my game anymore. Trying hard to suppress the feeling and just hide it, but it really isn't as simple as it seem!! Sometime i just simply wonder how i could hold on to this feeling for so long and not do a single thing about it. But i guess there is nothing i can do for now!! Let's just hope for the best =p

On the sidenote, i'm not emo-ing or what, just expressing myself. Don't misunderstand =p goodnight people

Actually planned to go and register for my driving lesson this morning!! But too bad, i overslept and didn't go in the end!! Spent the entire day at home not going anywhere!! Not a good thing.

Life is getting really unproductive, seriously needa find a job or at least do more things and make life more productive or fulfilling!!

After like two years of not blogging, i finally decided to log back on to my blogger account and deleted everything. Decided to change the layout of my blog too.

Maybe i should begin to blog more often!! Much have changed since the last i blogged. People come and go, feeling surfaced and faded, grown up and thinking changed. Went a big round and came back to the point where i first begin, maybe that's the only thing that haven changed.

Shall start from updating bout event today. Nothing much happened in the first 2/3 of the day. Went to meet Hanafie and Ian for dinner at Cwp's Mahattan fish market =p Did lots of catching up. Was feeling wonderful till the moment i stepped outta the restaurant and my havianias broke!! Forced to limp my way into uniqlo and got myself a big and fat pair of slippers. But the slippers are pretty comfortable actually =) Went on for some coffee and cheesecake for dessert and ended up planning for a trip to Bandung with the guys!!

Alright shall end here!!